love…

Is there ever really a thing called love? Or is it something imaginary..

If there is…how do you get love? 

I think it doesnt exist…because if it does… why are some deprived of it while others have it in abundance?

Love is far fetched.

i wonder if il ever know what it feels like to be loved… truly, madly, deeply…

giving your life for someone clearly doesnt bring you love..

respecting someone doesnt giv you love…

sacrificing and having patience doesnt give you love…

effort doesnt give you love…

so what does?

does it make you feel whole? Complete?

marriage definitely doesnt give you love…

marriage is just convenience for the one and torture and oppression to the other..

or am i understanding it wrong.

are there others that feel the way i do?

or is it just me in the entire world that has this all wrong?i have tried everything to feel loved… but i still dont feel it.

Maybe i should stop trying and it will find me…

or maybe i should just stop expecting love completely…

hurt is definitely real…

pain is real

betrayal and mistrust is real…

but love?

its imaginary…